Though, it's still hard to say, I'm happy now, because I miss everything and everyone in BIT, especially classrooms and food...

 

But there is something that is worthy to be called as delighting, sure.

 

For instance, everyday call to Mum, and Dr. Wei.

 

Every time when feeling native Amerivans are RUO...

 

Especially, yesterday, a professor in Engineering Science and Systems found me, telling me he'd give me a RA position to let me think about. He said: two advantages, one: more focus on research(is that advantages??) second: more money...

But I said no to himcomlicated feelings to refuse a professor...

Now it seems that everything is on their way~

 

One more thing, I switched my major, on Statistics. Still I don't know whether it's right to do, but...anyway, I could only do that at this moment. It's really hard to explain. Fortunately, math is much easier than research.

 

Surroundings are more familiar for the moment.

 

Roommate is nice; relationship is developing well.

 

Only one thing: my cookies are terrible...afflicted...

 

Not until today that I can finally load on the web, in the graduate office here. These days so many incidents happened, as to make my feelings complicated. Some of them is contigent to what I thought before, but some is far more another thing. Let me write them down one by one.

 

AUG 15 Reaching US

 

The most easy and hopeful time since I left home is during the journey.I took a plane from Beijing to Little Rock, with transmit in Tokyo and Dallas. It was exciting to speak English for most of the time, especially with the family also in Little Rock, during the delay in Dallas due to weather reasons. I called my dad as well during the delay to tell him.

 

The most impression with US when I finally came out of the airport in LR--after such a long wait for my luggage, but finally only a promise that they'd send them to my place the next day--its cleanesss, and so many trees insight. It's pretty hot, but much more comfortable than Beijing. It's more like a holidays' place than a real city. The aunt's house is really gorgious with a US style: a flat floor where rooms and decorations so different.

 

Lying on bed in this temporary place, I felt excited again and again: this is finally for real! The aunt told me here the running water is drinkable. That's really great! But I mised my mother. How did I wish that I could enable her coming as well.

 

AUG 16 My apartment

 

The next day: in the whole morning I was wondering in the aunt's house, enjoying the beatiful scene from the broad balcony. There I could see the smallest bird on earth--the harming bird, told by the aunt. At noon my time luggage finally arrived. At the time the man knocked on the door I was missing in the house so much that I cannot find the door! At last the blackman lifted them for me inside.

 

Then the terrible thing happended (I knew it terrible not until it did happen.): I was lead to my own apartment, sharing with another Chinese girl. The apt is very near to school, about 10-15 minutes' walk. Inside was a terrible scene! Narrow, masses, dirty...any bad word expressing a place that you name! Faint...

 

AUG 17 Really shocked...

 

The workshop really came, for my planned TA classes, with pizza provided. However, I could hardly follow the speech of the instructor when she was talking. I found that I was still not used to understanding English, though sometimes I even knew the word...ft, I'm still an outsider here.

 

And then I chose four classes with 12 credit hours! FAINT!!! I'll have to teach everyday, plus four classes taken!!! And I cannot even fully understand the native speaker's speech!

 

Because of the workshop, I didn't have anything for lunch but for one small share of pizza. I am feeling thirsty all the time, because I dare not drink the running water very often. When I walked home, I felt rather dazzy...and I barely lost my way.

 

I didn't want to eat, but I am so weak, and had to cook myself. I made noodles, and the soap with cabbages and an egg and beancurds in. Then I thought of the instant noodles prepared. So I add some to make much noodles. I ate the terrible meal with my roommate. She's a hard-working girl who's married, husband in Michigan. I promise to myself, to keep this apt's harmony.

 

I went to bed early in 9:45, due  to too much tiredness.

 

AUG 18 Hopefully

 

Because of the early time I  went to night and time that I am not used to, I woke up suddenly at 2am, and not fell asllep again until 4am. During the time I miss my mother a lot. I felt rather sorry to get so tired and confused and inconfident, because she's so kind to me, heart and soul she loves me. Thinking of that, I burst into cry in the quilt...than I found my eyes swelled seriously.

 

One good thing happen late in the day: someone in the dept quitted his RA job, so I took on it, which means I don't have to work daily as an assistant in Math Dept. Suddenly I  felt much relaxed. More delightfully, I am used to talk in English more and more. Hopefully things will prove fine.

 

I ordered 3 textbooks on net, which cost me more than $100. Expensive! Hopefully I could get SSN very soon. There is a party tonight. Then I'll go and see whether my apt has a mailbox.